I think that the rain and the gray have been getting to me. I am fighting off some sort of sore throat and feeling a bit frustrated about our shop. It has been so quiet in these last few weeks. A bit dreadful and eerie. I know that by normal business practice. One must say that everything is great. That business is fantastic and amazing. I should put on a happy face and play the part. One of the reasons that I love having a blog is that I can share with you the joy and the struggle of having a small business. It is like keeping my own journal. It is also a safe space for me to let you in on my story. I love love love designing and having my own shop. It is a dream come true. I am also very privileged to be doing this for the last two and a half years and so grateful for this opportunity. I have embraced all the moments including the fun, the excitement, the frustration, and the sleepless nights. Since things have been really tough financially for these last few months. Actually for these last few years. I once again asking myself “can we hold on?” Would there be enough people here in Portland to support the shop vision and its business philosophy? Will travelers continue to visit our shop and help us pay the rent? Are my designs too out there for everyone? Or am I just not a good designer at all? Was it a good decision to have a business in Portland? These are the questions that have been in my head constantly.
My parents had to bailed the shop out with rent and bills for the second month. It is a harsh truth. I am lucky enough to have parents that believe in me and the business. However, this can not keep going forever. We kept saying that hopefully our economy will improved and perhaps someday people might want to invest in beautiful pieces again. One can only hope. As my friend Salwa would say “try to ride out the wave.” In the mean time I am trying to learn how to surf on these rough waters. Wish me luck!